I'm not ok

I'm not ok. I'm feeling that feeling I get sometimes. The feeling of drowning. I keep letting out these silents screams, dropping subtle hints. No one hears. I've always had a problem asking for help. I feel like i'm sliding back down. Back down into unhealthiness. My life is frozen. And it drives me crazy. I'm depressed and my moods are swinging too and fro without warning. I need to get something done. I have a feeling that getting something done will ease this a little but I don't know where to start. This shit is never ending. I go almost 2 years feeling almost normal. Now I feel like i'm no my way to losing that. FUCK