I hate that I still love you. I hate that when I'm with people I want to love all I can think about is you. I hate that when I hear the cure you're all I can visualize. I hate how when I see you're favorite things in stores I still smile. I hate how Fun Dip will never taste the same. You don't deserve this. For all my thoughts to involve you. I don't know what to do about it. And I don't understand how come I hated you when we were together yet now you're all I really want. I hate him. I hate that you're happy. It's not fair. I hate that I disgust you when I used to adore the ground you walked on (yes I am aware that that is contradictory to previous statements, I can't help it.) Most of all I hate that I don't know how to fix it. Not us because I believe that's not fixable, but fix all the things I feel about you, or delete them. I wish there was a device like in Sunshine of a spotless mind that could just delete you from my memory, i know that the moral of that movie was against such things but I don't care. I'm done. I don't want them anymore. All they do is torment me and bring pain.
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